Hey loves 🙂 howdy?
So, a few years back someone had a change of heart on me, well, maybe not someone maybe it was someones. And maybe I had a change of heart to some people along the way too.
We all have a change of heart sometimes, we lose friends, we lose people we thought we loved and you can be ok with all these. But it gets tricky when you are emotionally invested…it hurts so bad! 🙁
So, when that someone had a change of heart I was frustrated, I seriously was. Yes, I was emotionally invested! I turned into a crybaby. I couldn’t take it, I felt betrayed, like what are you talking about? It left me with a lot of “what the efs??” What do you mean you have lost interest??
Not like I wasn’t aware that hearts could change sometimes because I should know they do, I am an expert at changing my heart from time to time like for my shoes, flowers I liked, things I liked to do, movies I thought I liked or food I once was deeply in love with.
But you see, when someone else changes their hearts on you, it gives you some sort of rhetorical questions. The list may start from the time you open your eyes in the morning assuming you managed to get some sleep the night before (I am trying to be optimistic). Questions go like; So, I wasn’t good enough for him/her? S/he didn’t love me after all?? Was I his/her rebound?? So, all the good moments we had together meant nothing to him/her?? All the promises and plans were all lies?
These questions don’t stop; they will keep floating your mind all day long! What about the tears? Ooh, don’t let me get started with that! They will wet your eyes whenever they see you are alone (at least they respect you when other people are around, otherwise it could have been worse)!
Trust me. Sometimes you even ask yourself “why am I crying”? You cry so much that you forget why the hell you were crying in the first place so you stop for a couple of minutes and then it hit you again “s/he had a change of heart on me” then you remember your why then the crying starts again! Yup, that bad!
But we forget one thing the heart can change sometimes, or many times, we are talking about heart here, remember?! It has no time to think, ask some tough questions… all it does is to want what it wants and it might kill you sometimes if you let it be on its own without featuring your brain into her decisions!
Just like you accept it when your heart changes throughout your life about your wants, hobbies, friends, that person you thought you loved more than anything and everything else and that’s how you should accept it when people change their hearts on you.
People may change and leave, accept the change of their hearts, embrace it. Life is still beautiful and the sky still exists, the sun still rises from East and sets West.
Everything will stay the same or better, the only difference is that they will not be there to witness the beauty of life without them in it.
It is not about you, it is about them! And maybe it is about you. But People come and go they will leave you alone whenever they decide to leave and that’s okay. You will always be on your own with your soul and your God.
There is someone who will come and decide they want to stay forever (I hope forever does exist, really do). They will choose to be there with you, they will choose to love you for who you are, they will be there to hold your hand and tell you it is going to be okay.
They will value and respect you enough, to be honest with you, they will choose to love you every day and they will feel lucky to have you. They will walk with you through hard times they won’t run when things get tough. After all, everything we do is a choice and love is no different!
And when that happens, be sure to be present, let go of your past, be happy, and love like you have never been hurt. Cherish that person, make new memories together and enjoy the beauty of life.
Until then, love yourself enough to believe that you are good enough and you will always be, be happy, treat yourself well, smile and live. Find some goods in the goodbye. It might be the best thing ever happened to you!
Just remember that everybody has a somebody out there, you just have to believe!
Until next time,