Hey loves 🙂 Thank you for stopping by. Today I will walk you through the process of reconnecting with my heart after neglecting her for quite sometime. Take a seat and let’s go 😉
I never realized how much I have been hurting you, how much you cried all this time I didn’t listen to you! Ever since you and I came to this world you have been there for me…
I remember when I was a child, you used to speak to me… you told me a lot of things like how my life would be when I grow up…how happy I would be with my life!
You told me nothing was impossible, you and I dreamed bigger dreams than ourselves and we both believed it was possible and you said I should just wait until I grow up, you said I wasn’t ready then…and I couldn’t wait to grow up and live our dreams!
You and I were happy until I grew up and the world told me something about life, something you never bothered to! The world gave me a different definition of life…a different definition of dreams….the world told me dreams were nothing but dreams! Can you imagine how disappointing that was?
And the worst of all I believed it and I forgot everything that you and I used to talk before the world interfered….I buried everything so deep that I couldn’t even remember that we used to be friends once!
The world introduced me to fear, and guess what? Fear was generous enough to ask if he could stay with me for as long as I wanted….I couldn’t say no because he seemed so real then.
After I accepted him to stay with me, everything became impossible…he controlled everything that I wanted to do, whenever I asked if I could do this or that his only reply was “you can’t do that”! He discourage me, I couldn’t take myself to try anything!
As that wasn’t suffocating enough, he later introduced me to failure! Fear wedded failure while he was staying with me and then both had to stay with me! Can you imagine having to live with these two?
From there anything that you told me I could do (because you believed in my capabilities) I couldn’t give it a try! Well, we both know why, fear and failure were working together as a couple in my head; they had power over us because I allowed them to!
You know it was a little easy when fear acted alone, but with both of them living in me hasn’t been easy! These two had me doubting myself, asking questions like am I good enough? Do I deserve this? Can I do this? And always I had the same answer to these questions; my answer was always ‘NO’
The first half of the year is gone; I am evaluating myself on my achievements so far! I break you again (my heart) after learning that I have accomplished less or nothing at all! Fear of failure took it all and left me with nothing but regrets!
There is always one thing that makes a dream impossible to achieve; the fear of failure, Paulo Coelho.
It’s only now that I have broken up with fear and failure that I realized you have been crying for help all this long but I couldn’t hear you nor see your tears! You cried about all the opportunities I didn’t take because of the fear of failure…places that I didn’t go and ideas that I buried because I didn’t have the courage to believe in myself and go for it…
It’s you and me again; I will listen to you no matter what! I believe you know it all! Yesterday you told me I am good enough, you told me I can do anything if only I believe in myself and be focused and persevere, you told me I deserve everything good…and the best part of it is that I believe every word you said…
We won’t lie to ourselves that it is going to be easy, we, like many other know how the world (people) can be so loud sometime…thinking it knows it all…we have to be bold enough to ignore it and believe completely in ourselves…
Until we do, the world’s voices will keep making decision for us…decisions that can only be right if we listen to ourselves, listen to our hearts!
Let your heart guide you…it whispers so listen closely. Walt Disney